Eight Times Broken Smile

Lyrics

EIGHT TIMES 💔 [Intro — whispered, crying, soft piano] Why...? Why does everybody laugh at me? Am I really that ugly? Why do I have to smile when every joke hurts? They see me laughing... But nobody sees what's happening inside. [Verse 1 — soft, sad piano] I walk into the classroom, pretending I'm okay, They make another joke, and I just look away. They laugh about my face like it's a game to play, I laugh along with them, with nothing left to say. They call me the class clown, the one who makes them smile, But they don't know I'm hurting underneath this fake denial. I turn my tears to laughter, I hide behind a grin, They see the joke outside, but never what's within. [Pre-Chorus — piano slowly builds] And I wonder every night, What's so wrong with me? Why can't somebody look at me And see what I can't see? [Chorus — emotional vocals, powerful piano] I'm tired of pretending, I'm tired of the pain, I'm tired of the laughter That echoes in my brain. I smile like nothing's broken, But I'm falling apart inside, I'm drowning in these feelings That I always try to hide. Can somebody hear me? Can somebody see? I'm more than all their jokes, I'm more than what they think of me. [Verse 2 — gentle piano, emotional vocals] Eight times I said, "I love you," Eight times I heard, "No." Eight times I kept on hoping, Eight times I watched it go. I thought that maybe this time You'd finally feel the same, But every time you turned me down, I swallowed all the pain. I know you don't owe me love, I know feelings can't be forced, But I wish you knew how much it hurt To watch hope change its course. I never wanted to pressure you, I only wanted you to know, That every time I said those words, I meant them from my soul. [Pre-Chorus — strings enter softly] And I wonder every night, Am I hard to love? Will I ever be enough For someone I'm dreaming of? [Chorus — bigger, heartbreaking] I'm tired of pretending, I'm tired of the pain, I'm tired of the laughter That echoes in my brain. I smile like nothing's broken, But I'm falling apart inside, I'm drowning in these feelings That I always try to hide. Can somebody hear me? Can somebody see? I'm more than all their jokes, I'm more than what they think of me. [Bridge — almost silent, crying voice] Maybe I'm not ugly... Maybe I'm just hurt. Maybe all those cruel words Have made me doubt my worth. Maybe I don't need their approval, Maybe I can stand alone. Maybe one day I'll stop believing Every cruel thing that I've been told. To the boy who kept on trying, Even when his heart said stop, You don't have to earn their kindness, You don't have to prove you're enough. [Final Chorus — emotional climax, full piano and strings] I'm done with pretending, I won't hide my pain. Their words may leave their marks, But they won't define my name. I may still feel broken, I may still cry at night, But somewhere deep inside me, There's a little bit of light. Maybe someone will see me, Maybe someday I'll believe, That I'm worthy of real kindness, That I'm worthy just to be me. [Outro — whispered, soft piano fading away] Eight times I told you I loved you... And eight times, you said no. I can't make you love me... And that's okay. To everyone who laughed at my face... I hope one day you understand. And to the boy in the mirror... I'm sorry I believed them. I loved you eight times... And now... I have to learn to love myself. 💔