Bad Apple! (Melodeath version)

Lyrics

Sitting wide awake, feeling time flow on and on While night is closing in, cold indifference washing down upon the Beating of my heart, left to crack beneath the weight of All I tried to hold, spinning out of control Paralyzed and scared, feel my heart race faster than the Ticking of the clock, thoughts keep spinning in a roundabout I'm stumbling through the dark, and there's nowhere to escape 'Cause I'm the only thing in this empty hellscape Maybe I'm asleep and this void is just a dream Still it swallowed up my voice, both the whispers and the screams If the ache won't go away, if I'm destined for this pain Then I'll numb my heart and pray only nothingness remains Even if I found the words that had long since drifted off I'm still drowning in my thoughts, they'd too soon be left to rot If I will myself to move, then the feelings flood right back I'LL BE SHROUDED FROM THE LIGHT, TILL MY WORLD IS PAINTED BLACK Do you honestly believe there's a future here for me? In this desecrated world, would I even want to see? If you saw me as I am, there'd be no one to defend Since I'm empty to my core, (good for nothing) in the end Even so must I exist? In a time and place like this? In this pandemonium, that perpetually persists If you think that I can change, if I follow to the light Will my soul then be reborn, dyed an incandescent white? I could say that I'm asleep and this void is just a dream Still it swallowed up my voice, both the whispers and the screams IF THE ACHE WON'T GO AWAY, IF I'M DESTINED FOR THIS PAIN THEN I'LL NUMB MY HEART AND PRAY ONLY NOTHINGNESS REMAINS If I struggle on and move, if I force myself to run I'd see everything I loved disappearing one by one IF I GIVE INTO THE TEARS, IF I GIVE INTO THE PAIN CAN THIS HEART INSIDE MY CHEST TURN A VIVID WHITE AGAIN?